wow i cant believe im saying this, not really, but where has my young life gone too... T.T i mean really i havent done the things i wanted to do like:

~go to a any anime cons
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~go out with my friends [the cool ones anyways, and i if we did hang out, well, cool]
[*][*][*][][][6]
~got catch stealing
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~got catched kissing
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~being real rebellions
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~stole someone's first kiss
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~yugioh tournament[at less join or make it to the semi-finals]
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~leave to another state
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~make some lamn song
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~seeing moives for free and get away with it
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[the * means how bad i wanted to do them and the number means how close i was in doing in it(and those are i think type, so they are not to accurate)]

...

i cant think of anything else that i wanted to do damn i feel that my years have gone by me so fast. i want them back. just thinking about gets me sad, oh well... someday i get those years back. i just started think about this when some of my friends were moving or have moved away, and how their lives have changed.... i feel that i have change not one bit... i only thing that i feel that has change is me trying to more free, as in breaking the bonds from my parent grip. i tryed to get away from my parents by staying at the university dorms that worked but not for long at most i stayed there was 2 months. i was tring to stay there for all of my 4 years of college. yea i ended up staying with my parents again.

damn i hate this life of mine.